long time...

Wow.. I didn't realized how long it has been since I last posted a blog. I have been really busy.. I am currently substitute teaching for the local schools. This not only gives me a little something to do, extra $, but it helps me keep my mind of the waiting period. Yes, we are still waiting for a baby. We have not heard from anyone. Our agency said they don't really have any birthmom's and the one's that usually get already have a family when then begin with the agency. I wish I had asked more questions about all that before we paid them the money for the searching part of the adoption.

I wonder if we went to the right agency, if this was where God really wanted us to go, or if we (I) got in over my head and just wanted a baby so quick & bad that I didn't care where I went. I guess I will just have to wait. I am not patient when it comes to things that I really want. We have heard that a friend of ours who is unwed, is now pregnate. This really bugs me b/c I feel its not fair.. I know God says that life isn't fair, but we have been waiting for a baby, something we both feel God wants us to have, and this girl who is just having fun gets one.

I know this is not the best way to look at it, but I am having a hard time with this situation. I thought maybe she would want to give the baby up, but I don't think she will. Anyway.. its back to waiting. I know in my head that God will provide, but it is hard to believe it in my heart.

Pray that I begin to not let all this get in the way of my worshiping God and waiting for his perfect child for this family.