No News

We still haven't heard anything about the young baby. I know we still have a couple more days to go, but my hope that the baby will live is dwindling quickly. I really don't know which way to go next. I just feel blah.. not sure how i really feel. I can't even put it into words. I want a baby, but at the same time I don't want to go through the trouble and loss of getting one. I am a little depressed. I know its easier to say than believe, but God will take care of everything. I know He has the right baby for us at the right time. I know there is a reason for this delay.

I heard from our Homestudy agency, apparently they didn't have all our info, even though they told us everything was in & accepted a couple weeks ago. I was a little distrubed when they called & told me that some of it was missing. We have sent this stuff in so many times. I don't think I will deal with this agency again.

I am trying to listen for God's voice and do what he wants us to do. I guess I am just not listening hard enough. I know God will tell us our next step when its time, but its really hard to just wait on his timing. I guess I got my hopes up way to quick.. everything seemed too good to be true and right now I'm starting to believe it was. I still have this small wish that we will get a call and the baby will live & there will be nothing wrong with it.

I know its a small glimmer of hope, but it is still there. I am starting to have a hard time being around babies again. I was doing better when I was excited about us adopting one, now I am just not so thrilled. I know I shouldn't be like this and I want to change I just don't know what to do other than pray and that I don't even feel like its doing anything.

Baby update

We just got back from vacation and have news about the possiblity of a baby. We have found out that the doctors say the baby may not live once its born. We know that God can do miracles and has done many in the past. I tried not to get my hopes up too much, but I couldn't help it. I was getting excited. Now I don't know what to think. I feel a little disappointed, but I know there is still hope. We can only pray. We will know more in the next week.

I don't know if I can do this every time. I don't want to get my hopes up and then have them crushed everytime we have a possiblity of a baby. I am also trying to decide if I want to pay an agency to find a family for us. I want a baby, but I don't know if there is one out there for us. I am somewhat depressed about the whole thing. Keep us in your prayers as we continue through this journey and begin to learn what God wants to teach us.

Baby

Well we may have a baby!!! We have found a mom that will be giving up her baby and as of right now, we are the only family interested. This baby will go into foster care, if we do not adopt it. We just found out about this baby last night. The mom has and still may be using drugs, so we are not sure if the baby has any problems. We have been told that if there is anything we feel we cannot handle or are uncomfortable with, we do not have to adopt the baby.

We don't know much more right now, we are waiting for the social worker to call us and we may know more then. We thought the mom was going into labor today, but it was false labor pains. She is scheduled for a c-section at the end of the month. We are going to start getting some furnature and other things, just incase. We are going on vacation beginning thursday-next wed. so hopefully it won't happen until after we get back.

Our families are very excited. But we know that God is in control of this situation even more than we are. I am scared that this will not happen for us. I know I just need to trust God and what He knows is best.

Pictures

Hey guys... just wanted to add this site to my blog. I have created a website where the birthparents will be able to visit our photos. I thought you might enjoy looking at them also. If you stop by, leave a comment and let me know what you think. The website is http://justinlori.site.shutterfly.com/


There is no new information as of right now in our adoption process. We are still waiting for the agency to finish up our homestudy. I will update you all when that is completed.

New Updates

Well.. we have a couple options for our adoption. We have been notified of 2 birth moms who has criteria we meet. We don't know much about either one. But are very excited that God has provided 2 options as of now. We also know that we may not be chosen for either parent. God has all of this in his hands and knows the exact family that will become part of our family. Please pray for both of these birthmom's and their choices. Also for us and the waiting process that we will be going through.

Here are a couple pictures of our nursery.

This is for all of you who are wondering how things are going. We are still waiting on our home study to be accepted. We are todl that it will probably be looked at this weekend. I'm not holding my breath, they told us we would have it done by now. I understand the agency has other people, but I wish they wouldn't tell us one day, then keep moving it back. I guess God is trying to teach me patience. I know the actual adoption process is long and waiting is a very large part of it.

I am still working on my picture profile, but I am not planning on finishing it until we get back from vacation at the end of July. I figure then we will have some pictures of the vacation and everything we did, so the families can see we do take vacations. We will be going to South Carolina for my cousins wedding then to see some friends in North Carolina. I am looking forward to this vacation because it will get my mind off every stress I am having with the adoption.